The problem with falling in love with women half my age is not that there is some morally wrong thing with it, it's that I'm not going to change unless God changes me and they most certainly will. So after ten years of marriage with someone much younger she is a different person. Will we still love eachother? Yes but will we be able to get along? Probably not. But to push the envelope, I still feel inside like I'm 18 to 24 and I'm attracted to women that age. The last girl I fell in love with just came out and said I'm too old, my hair is too gray, and I'm not tall enough ( at 5' 6" ). But my hair is long! I don't blame her. If we had a child I'd be old, in years that is, when my son or daughter started college. It would be fun though to raise a child, me being an education major. There really isn't one type of girl I'm attracted to, I like all kinds. Honestly though, in highschool I was the guy all the girls wanted to date. I was told things like "You could have any one you wanted". I did have a girlfriend for three of those four years. I let her go. Stupid mistake. But there's nothing I can do about that now. I still love her and I always will. She is very successful now, married with a grown daughter. I see her occasionally at a store and we say "HI". I'm absolutely terrified of divorce. Silly me thinking the worse will happen. I'm looking, no one can blame me for shopping around. "Can I help you?" Me: "No thank you, I'm just looking."

The world is flat. That's what people used to believe. The Sun revolves around the Earth. People used to believe that. A long time ago the Roman Catholic Church punished some for their discoveries of truth through science. We know a lot more now than we used to. Now there is an argument between Evolutionists ( Macro Evolution ) and Creationists. Now it's the Creationists who are derided by most of the higher educated. It's the Creationists who are told they are wrong by the vast majority of society. Just the opposite of the way it has happened in the past. From what I understand the Creationists welcome the argument and the Evolutionists would rather not bother hearing the free exchange of ideas, the Creationists are simply wrong from the beginning. Okay, it all came from the Big Bang. There was something that blew up and the Universe happened. What blew up and where did it come from? The Cosmos has always been here and will always be here. What happened before that? What will happen when it all dies? If God doesn't intervene then it all will die. If that's the case then what meaning does life have? Well, man lived for awhile, we were here. But why? Why did we become so self aware with such a great drive to survive? Why are we so self destructive as a race? Why do we treat our home like a dump? That is why I am a Creationist. That is why I believe in God. There are answers to my questions not in religion but through faith. The term religion has at least two meanings. One of them is "Ritual to gain God's approval". Creationism is not a religion. Why is it so hard to believe in God and believe as someone who is sovereign and can do anything He wants, He created? I don't get it. I don't understand. When people hear about something so wonderfull how can they be so hatefull or unbelieving? If I'm right then I will be saved. If I'm wrong then it doesn't matter because then there is no value to life to someone bigger than we are who loves us and cares about what we have to go through. My guess is that by now most all of you have heard that human nature is a fallen nature and we are a spirit. THAT is the problem.

I met her one night while I was visiting a friend. They were dating. It was love at first sight for me. I didn't ever let her know I loved her. But I would go visit him to be with her. I told my Mom about her. They got married. They moved away. My problem was solved. They moved back. Now I didn't know what to do. She invited me over to visit over and over again and I always gave in. She told me all about the problems they were having. I hinted toward my feelings. I said for a guy to be close friends with a girl she has to realize there is going to be some attraction there. She came over crying several times because she and her husband had had a fight. I never knew what to say except to say she could hide out at my place for awhile. She never did. I still didn't say I love you. When they would fight while I was visiting sometimes I tried to fix things for them. I knew she was off limits for me. It was hard because I loved her still. They split up for good and I told her. She moved away.