Hi everybody.  Schizoaffective Disorder is schizophrenia with a mood disorder. I have it. It started when I was a freshman in highschool which is early as this problem goes. I've really, really suffered through the years. And for years I couldn't comunicate that. I'm okay now. No. I haven't been cured but I'm taking new medications which were not available years ago and I'm in therapy. My therapist is really smart. She gives me the credit for my improvement. When I'm wrong about something she doesn't hesitate to let me know it and when I'm right or when I come to a new understanding about myself she gives me the credit. The main thing that has gotten me through the hard times is my relationship with Jesus. I'm a born again Christian. My spiritual life is just as important as my mental and emotional life. I have the things I understand straight in my mind but I have problems with the delivery, I have trouble speaking my mind. Sometimes I'm afraid to. I long to comunicate with others. I have had moments, too few of them, when I was really understanding, really comunicating, giving and receiving. But my forte is visual art - drawing and painting. That's where I can say something positive. Vocational wise I'm a graphic designer, which is a combination of drafting and art. I was great at drafting in jr. high school. I love music, too, which brings me to my point. I'm one of those highly creative type people. I love playing piano. I've taken a few lessons. Though I don't read music I can really express myself. I've also written a feature film screen play, a book, a short story, song lyrics and prose poems. I've designed my own house. Sometimes I think I should focus on one thing as a career and do that one thing well. But I love both art and music. I know I'm going to do what I want to do so I'm not worrying about that as much as I used to.

 by designandart

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